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When The White Rider Falls

Fallen White Knight by RachellaJH@deviantart.com

Fallen White Knight by RachellaJH@deviantart.com

When the champion falls from his noble steed
And lays vanquished upon the ground
Struggling with the same mortality we all bear
Trying to rise under the weight of the expectations
Continually laid upon his shoulders by those
Bestowing their favor and placing their hope
On his ability to continue to enter the arena
While others merely enjoy the show that he puts on
Again and again, rising to meet each new challenger
Until that fatal day when he lays with his face in the earth
And he finds that those who had cheered him
Would rather see him die upon his white horse,
Than see him fall to the ground disappointing their hopes
To continue to exhibit the illusion of strength
Even when that illusion covers a gaping wound
And as the cheering crowds depart the coliseum in silence
Mourning not his injuries but their own disappointment
Leaving only the critics who look down with disapproving stares
As the one once lifted up as the hero becomes the outcast
And the white rider becomes quickly forgotten and ignored
His life’s blood sacrificed to quench the desire of the masses
Now crippled, he is quickly replaced by another who takes up the banner
When yesterday’s heroes fall from grace
We turn away in fear, for if those who we placed little lower than gods
With all their strength and mental resolve and ability
If they can know the sting on failure and weakness of wounds
Then what hope do we mere mortals have
 
Neil White, 2014

Magnificent Desolation

Blue-Stars-In-Space

The strongest man in the world is not the one who always towers over his challengers
Boasting the undefeated record, whose has never met a challenge that he didn’t overcome
Or the woman who manages to look perfect, act perfect and construct the perfect web
Of relationships and security, of appearances and approval, an image of perfection
Rather it is those who have faced the magnificent desolation of failure and rose again
Who can encounter the magnificent desolation and learn to see its beauty
Past the judging eyes of those caught within their own insecurities and crystalline lives
Who have had their worth, their beauty, their strength, and their very souls questioned
Those who watched their past lives vanish in a flash of light and out of the remnants
Rose again to reenter the arena, to risk again to create, to love, to try, to fight and to fail
Who have endured the gaping maw of anxiety and the abyssal pit of depression
Who may still feel the black bile occasionally creep back into their veins threatening to consume them
Or at random times have to remember to breath and quiet their heart as it pounds within their chest
Learning how to live in the aftermath of both failure and success
And find a way to learn from the past without letting it define them
Who know the grace of not needing to seek a better past or a perfect present
And can look to the future without losing sight of the gifts of the day
Who have the courage to lean on others at the times when their minds or bodies fail
And the compassion to stand with others in their desolations and celebrations
 
Neil White, 2014

Icarus

Herbert James Draper, Mourning for Icarus (1898)

Herbert James Draper, Mourning for Icarus (1898)

There are days when I push carelessly beyond the bounds of my own mortality
Brushing against the edge of the heavens in the frantic flight of my own fancy
And I try to capture the moon and stars while ascending to the seat of the sun
In the valiant pursuit of my own vainglory; trespassing of the limits of body and soul
Yet, for the moment I soar within the vision of my mind’s imagination
But it is not long before my cramping muscles and my throbbing head remind me
I am indeed mortal and not a god, that my limits are painfully real
That my wings are only a clever construct of wood and leather and stolen feathers
Held together with pins and hinges and melted wax
And that as I approach the fire in the sky they evaporate in the heat
While my body finds itself unable to sustain its efforts on the thin air of the heavens
So I plummet again to my home in the dust, collapsing into the hard embrace of earth
Wounded in body and spirit and yet the deepest blow is to the pride
Yet, my body heals and the spirit forgets and the ego yearns
As I once again tan the leather and steal the feathers and build the wings
For the next time I try to make the impossible ascent into the heavens

Neil White, 2013

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